#368: SPOTLIGHT: Christina Posa

Question for Christina: 

Can you recall a specific moment in the last four months that you were in what you would consider to be “nature” and thought or felt for at least a split second that “maybe all is actually right with the world” ?

Christina's Response:

My first thought while reading this prompt was, “wow, yes.” Because I had just felt this way the other day. 

It was a hard day at work, and it felt almost impossible to stop my mind from running through ways I could solve a task I’d left at my desk. I was out for a walk; I thought maybe the change of environment, the movement, the fresh air… it might loosen the grip my mind had on this task. But, to no avail. I found myself walking, and yet looking down at my phone to see if I’d gotten feedback from my boss. It was then that I told myself to stop. Stop physically feeding the mental loop. Stop trying so hard to do something that I wasn’t doing. Which was walking down the quiet street of my Dad’s house in Florida. 

The street is part of a community complex, so there are rarely any cars. So few actually, that the ducks who live in the ponds on either side of the road tend to waddle across and linger undisturbed on the pavement. I was looking out at the water, so still that it caught the details of the trees and the houses and sent them back to the sky. There was one duck on the water and she was dipping her head beneath the surface, her tail tipping to the sun, little feet spinning beneath her and casting rings of ripples around her body. She popped her head back out for a second to flick water from her feathers, and then back into the water she dove again.

That was it. 

That was all I really saw but I wasn’t at my desk anymore. I was just here, watching this bird and a peace had come over me. A sort of feeling like nothing and abundance rolled together. I wanted to figure out why I felt that way but I couldn’t. I like that nature does that. That it offers a deep knowing with just as much mystery.